The Faulty Mind of kSarn

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Work

I haven’t found the motivation to complete my work, but I’ve finally found the  way for me to move forward in my career and life. I’ve just needed to find a groove to get into. Hopefully somewhere along the way I’ll find something that makes me happier.

I’ve started multiple projects. One I’m actually really excited to work on is a tracklist add on to Soundcloud. I’m working on it with great people and I hope it gains some traction. It’s going to help me get used to prototyping and working in a more dynamic environment. Since this project is self driven, its success or failure will ride solely on our shoulders. I like it. We will be the source of our own success.

The other two projects I can’t really talk about as they are related to companies. Needless to say I think they will help me grow my technical skill set in the right direction. I felt I’ve been floundering in the past year, letting my skills slide. With these two projects, I finally feel like I’m heading in the right direction professionally.

But all this is work, work work work. I hope I can make some similar progress in my personal life. Well this is a first step any ways. Lets hope this success continues and spreads to other parts of my life.

May 4

I fear I’m just waiting for the end of the story.

May 4
May 2

Dreams

I had a dream that I was using eHarmony and it suggested I look at people that had complicated stories.

I wonder if that’s what I’m looking for. Somebody just as damaged as I am.

I find that people who are happy all the time are plastic and difficult to relate to. Maybe these people do exist, but I am not one of these people. I cannot understand their lives.

May 1

Callous

My heart is tender. I bleed when I should callous.

Seeing people of the past doing new things.

Today I saw something. I didn’t even see this thing in person. I only saw a picture on facebook. But I keep hearing things too. That Jessica is going on dinners with other guys. 

I understand that I broke up with her. I understand that even the last time I did this, she started dating sooner than I did. I understand that this was inevitable. It still hurts. A lot.

I don’t know if shes over me but fuck I’m still not ready to date anybody. The last time it took me over a year before I even let another woman into my life, and even then I quickly felt… wrong and ended it.

All I can do right now is be fucking emo and want to die. FML. Great way to start the week.

(Source: garbroll)

SHM LA and Tahoe

Last two weeks I spent time with great friends. It was our one year reunion UMF. I missed Denise, Chris, Andrew, and everybody else. A few of us were missing but it was most of the same people. I missed all of them very much. It was so great to see all of them and spend two weekends with them. I hope I can find more friends like that in the future.

Although I do wish I had boarded some. Couldn’t sleep at all the first night and just stayed home and cooked…. =(

Its Time.

Its Time.

(Source: carlop)

euji:


Let’s go on a road trip together. Just you and me.

I really really want to

Road trip…….

euji:

Let’s go on a road trip together. Just you and me.

I really really want to

Road trip…….